regression, depression? sorry for the rhyme

So on a personal note, i have a tear in my Labrum in my hip. hooray. This is old news for FB and G+ friends, but i thought i'd note it here too. I have almost completely regressed in my progress in quitting pulling my eyelashes. It makes me sad and angry. i've tried not to, but with so much free time and worrying about my upcoming surgery has made it more difficult to quit pulling. I have very few eyelashes left and have made a mess out of my eyebrows. My husband made a joke that people might think he's abusing me (spousal abuse is NEVER a funny subject, ever... but this was more of one of our off-color comments we make that we never mean seriously) and it's funny because there are only a couple scratches above my eyes, so it's not like i have bruises, so it's totally out of place.
When it comes to trich, i've found i am relentless, which is how the disorder is characterized. i will dig and dig for as long as i can right now. My hip limits how long i sit. my other big issue is when i read a book, my hand immediately goes up to pull. I know it, but stopping is so tough. writing about it now makes my eyes itch. I have always trich'd when reading. I think i will worry about eyelashes later. As far as the depression in the title, it's only because of my current situation. Just gotta keep breathing, I've said that many times before. *deep breath in, and let it out*

failure is not an option

i've been trying to stop pulling for the last several months. i've tried the EFT technique and the tap technique. they worked for a while, until i got super stressed out by work. i am now off work on disability for a hip injury. with the idea of surgery looming, i'm even more stressed out. fortunately sitting is not my strong suit right now, so sitting to trich is even harder. i've found myself pulling when i read, i have an e-reader, so it's easier to take one hand away and pull. i liked having eyelashes, they are mostly gone now. my biggest issue when they grow is the itch, the all consuming, annoying itch.
i'll keep scouring the internet for help. maybe one day a doc that specializes in behavioral therapy for trich-sters like me will come to Dayton and i can get the help i need.