post #10

I have nothing really Earth-shattering to say. I think I am posting for my own vanity (I might even argue that in another blog, but not now). My eyelashes are nearly all gone. I am wondering how the doctors and nurses will react before my hip arthroscopy next week since I cannot wear make up there. I have gone out in public more without make up. I don't think I want people other than close friends to see the "real" me, but as long as the public I see are strangers, then I don't have to fear their judgments. I doubt anyone looks at my eyes when they see me. All my life I have felt absolutely invisible, at school, university, and so on. If so, then I guess I have no worry about people looking at me and thinking of how terrible I look. But, I'm also vain and paranoid, so I suspect people think I am truly crazy. Oh well. Enough babble for now.